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I really miss my boyfriend who is in Shreveport, LA for spring break.. really miss him. I trust him though, I've just been cheated on and I hope he isn't (but I know he is) talking to other girls. But talking isn't a crime. Just wish I was there by his side. But we were separated when he planned the trip with one of his guy friends.

My Day:
- Slept for 12 hours, Woke up..
- Ate 2 eggs, a bunch of grapes
- Had a gyn appt
- Had a sandwich from jimmy john's, ugh I ate like crap and didn't work out.
- Came home and slept for 3 more hours
- Woke up, here I am. Hungry.

I'm about to go out to a bar and have some drinks with friends, I kind of want to stay home though.. I'm tired, always tired. I will end up going though because that's what I do. I know if I stay home, I will sleep more and just get more and more depressed. What is wrong with me!?

I don't feel good about myself, that's what is wrong. I severely need a good day.

*******Edit 12:50am********

So I went out, had one green beer... stupid girl. My ex called and asked if I wanted to go out and have drinks with old friends for st. patty's day. I didn't want to sit at home so I did. He was wasted, I was bored... He texted wanting me to break up with my boyfriend and I told him he was a loser and obviously I said FUCK no. He went on to tell me how I am "sub-par" compared to him and how my boyfriend is a loser, and even talked about how my dad is a loser for being divorced. UGH. I should have stayed my ass home. I shouldn't have gone out with him at all - I shouldn't even be talking to him but I thought we could be friends. This is why I don't stay friends with exes. All he did was hurt my feelings, and I know the guy is an asshole, but FUCK. Really? We're adults now.. grow up. I guess it's true the drama never ends - no matter how old you get. I miss my boyfriend.

Goodnight.